Laying awake last night next to my… friend… I ran through the events of the night in my mind. Seeing my cousin for the first time in months made my night, and i didnt realize until after how much i missed him and how important to me he is. after being awake for an hour at 5:00am the only thing i wanted at that time was to talk to the boy beside me about it. but i couldnt. im a very open person, and its still bothering me that i couldnt turn to this man when i needed to. is it still to early in the relationship? or is this a red flag telling me that hes not right for me?

Although this significant others friend is reassuring me that he’s never been happier, i still struggle to see strength- companionship- in the relationship.