It’s ironic that no matter how much we try and prepare ourselves for a relationship, battle scars still remain. I spent three years of my life demanding proper treatment from men, and in high school that doesn’t always get you very far. After all that time, i thought i found someone who wouldn’t hurt me, who would put me first and treat me right. And although i put him through all the vigorous testing, and he seemed to prove to me that he was in it to win it, i was still burned in the end. Even though i did nothing wrong, as i try and move on into a new relationship, i start to feel self conscious. I thought i knew how to move on, however; I’m still being burned. The break up left me lonely and questioning myself, and its unfortunate that out of everything thats what im taking from it right now. but its hard, and its not like im comparing the two men and relationships, its just an emotional toll thats being carried over that i dont know how to deal with it. was i supposed to leave it behind with the everything else? do i share these feelings with my new interest? or does it just stay with me, until i meet someone who helps me forget about any past insecurities?